You know that time in life when you feel like everything is going well? It could go better and it could definitely go worse – but everything is going awesome. You’re happy with where you are at, you have something to fight for and you feel like you will make everything work. And then, all of a sudden, a big and heavy roadblock falls down in front of you. Now, all you have to do is to kick that road block to the side of the road. Sounds so easy. But the feeling is just dragging you down, the feeling that it is not alright anymore. That just happened to me a few hours ago. Then again, I was expecting it, it always happens when life is going okey, isnt it? I’m glad its not worse though, I just failed an exam that I from the start had a feeling would fail. Its just an exammmm! But it hits you hard when you see that sign, when you get that e-mail and you have no idea what you did wrong. The wait for feedback tomorrow is taking forever and I really do not have any inspiration to continue with my thesis proposal at the moment so here I am looking at the snow/rain falling down outside.
On the bright side though, thinking with a clear head, I think it was a good thing that I failed. I mean, obviously I didn’t quite know what I was doing and now I’m getting a second chance of learning it. I should be… happy? relieved? positive? Positive. As they say, always look on the bright side. A motto that usually works. Now, I’m just hoping my thesis meeting tomorrow goes well and I’m fit for fighting again. Lets get rid of that road block!
